Not that I'm suggesting this is where your mind's at Polbeth but, I was listening to an excellent podcast about suicide on Monday night. It's a podcast called Philosophy Bites, each episode is only 15-20 mins long (this one is 18 mins) so, very easy to fit into your day.
Each podcast they have an expert on and question them with generally simple questions and prompt them through their learned logic.
There was a great bit where the expert had started off talking about Camus (the playwrite/philosopher), that Camus' main question and a question he believed needed answering before anyone could attempt any philosophy; suicide and is there actually any reason to live? We live in a godless world [I know some will dispute that but, that was his premise], therefore no reason to prevent oneself from ending it, life is absurd and meaningless, pain, sadness, violence. But, ultimately, he came to the conclusion that life does have meaning in the absurdity, art, children, love, nature. All these things are enough, should be enough for anyone.
And, my own viewpoint is; sometimes we can see the beauty and sometimes we cant. But, it's always there, whether we care or not.